Wait for Me.
At Jory's apartment last night, it just smacked me in the face. Tiffany was on the phone with Nancy in the other room, and Jory was kneeling in front of his sister's computer putting together a mix CD. I was sitting on the couch, listening to the songs as Jory went through them.
My two best friends in the whole entire world are leaving at the end of the summer. Every single thing in my life could change while they're gone.
I thought the world transformed when I graduated from high school, but this is even more crazy. I'm so excited for them I could just strangle the both of them, and I'd never want them to stay home when they both know that they're supposed to be serving the Lord.
But at the same time, I'm so scared. I could be married when they come back. It's not likely, but it could happen. That is unfathomable to me. I can't get married without them there. And we still have so much stuff to do together. I can't get married ever. None of us can. That is not allowed anymore.
So I sat on Jory's couch, turned around slightly with my arms folded on the back of it, staring down at a piece of patterned paper... stars and stripes and circles in black and white. He put "Maps" by the YeahYeahYeahs on the CD, and I was okay. He put "Wonderwall" by Oasis on the CD, and I was okay. And then he put "The Promise" by Tracy Chapman on the CD, and I fell apart.
I sat on his couch and tried not to make any noise. It was stupid, really, because I'm pretty sure he knew I was crying a little bit anyway. It wasn't at all the kind of cry I felt like I should be crying, but it was enough to stop the enormous pressure on my chest, behind my eyes. I am never going to be able to listen to this song again without thinking of my most precious friends.
If you wait for me
Then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me
If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting
Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise
If it's one that you can keep
I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say you'll hold
A place for me in your heart.
My two best friends in the whole entire world are leaving at the end of the summer. Every single thing in my life could change while they're gone.
I thought the world transformed when I graduated from high school, but this is even more crazy. I'm so excited for them I could just strangle the both of them, and I'd never want them to stay home when they both know that they're supposed to be serving the Lord.
But at the same time, I'm so scared. I could be married when they come back. It's not likely, but it could happen. That is unfathomable to me. I can't get married without them there. And we still have so much stuff to do together. I can't get married ever. None of us can. That is not allowed anymore.
So I sat on Jory's couch, turned around slightly with my arms folded on the back of it, staring down at a piece of patterned paper... stars and stripes and circles in black and white. He put "Maps" by the YeahYeahYeahs on the CD, and I was okay. He put "Wonderwall" by Oasis on the CD, and I was okay. And then he put "The Promise" by Tracy Chapman on the CD, and I fell apart.
I sat on his couch and tried not to make any noise. It was stupid, really, because I'm pretty sure he knew I was crying a little bit anyway. It wasn't at all the kind of cry I felt like I should be crying, but it was enough to stop the enormous pressure on my chest, behind my eyes. I am never going to be able to listen to this song again without thinking of my most precious friends.
Then I'll come for you
Although I've traveled far
I always hold a place for you in my heart
If you think of me
If you miss me once in awhile
Then I'll return to you
I'll return and fill that space in your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
If you dream of me like I dream of you
In a place that's warm and dark
In a place where I can feel the beating of your heart
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
If you'll be waiting
I've longed for you and I have desired
To see your face, your smile
To be with you wherever you are
Remembering
Your touch
Your kiss
Your warm embrace
I'll find my way back to you
Please say you'll be waiting
Together again
It would feel so good to be
In your arms
Where all my journeys end
If you can make a promise
If it's one that you can keep
I vow to come for you
If you wait for me and say you'll hold
A place for me in your heart.
2 Comments:
Oh Chels! Chin up! I will make you a happy mix next that will pull you out of this here funk. I have confidence that while we are away things in your life will go exactly as they should, and your edification will be immense.
I'm holding you to that, you bastard. I want a happy mix in my hands the next time I see you. xD
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